How I Almost Sabotaged Myself and My #75HARD Journey
Nov 28, 2024
1 on 1 time with my gentlemen is rare.
It’s not that I don’t want it, but finding, training, nurturing and keeping support staff for either of my sons has been a hard journey, especially now that they are adults. We are no longer sweet tiny people that are easy to fall in love with. We have STUFF. Those details are for a different blog. For now let’s just say that when I am with one of them I need to know the other is safe and well cared for in my absence.
Meanwhile I am in the pursuit of #75HARD - I am seeking what lies on the other side of the full 75 days in the repetition of the 7 tasks.
*45 minute workout
*45 minute workout - outdoors
*Take a progress picture
*Read 10 pages
*Drink 1 gallon of water
*No cheat meals or alcohol
*Follow a diet
So in my #75HARD journey, I have committed to eating plants with the standards of - NO dairy, NO meat, NO soda, NO alcohol. However, a weird thing recently happened. When I reflect, it has happened before in life but I wrote it off—I set a goal, I set criteria to meet the goal, then out of nowhere, I up the ante.
It might seem harmless but today it became a glaring spot in front of me. If I up the ante I make something that was already going to be HARD, HARDER. Today it dawned on me that I am actually self-sabotaging.
Adam had respite support today, and Caden and I had made a plan. We would go on a bike ride in the pedicab, do an errand or two and then go to a restaurant. The first 2 items on the checklist were easy. That bike ride helps me get the 45 minutes outside and the errands help us work on socialization and appropriate behavior in public. It was the last one where things got tricky.
Suddenly the idea of a restaurant panicked me. That couldn’t possibly be within the parameters of #75HARD. I need to limit processed food and really I should only be eating whole food—needless to say that could easily lead me down a destructive rabbit hole.
An interesting side note about Caden is that he does not eat dairy. Not specifically an allergy but eliminating that from his diet helps with all things gut and behavior. Caden has a few restaurants that he prefers that satisfy his specific dietary requirements and he had chosen a vegan place that has soy-based soft serve.
I wrapped myself in self-contempt, upping the ante around my diet needlessly—I remembered that I intentionally built our life to keep us successful. Caden’s preferred restaurants are carefully curated, I thoughtfully chose my #75HARD food goal doubling down on the soda and alcohol addition and I did not need to choose a weird level of perfection over spending time with my son.
Thankfully we spent this block of time enjoying things we could do together—while staying true to my #75HARD goals. Day 27 made it successfully into the books!
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